Forbidden Aspirations

What have I become
When true comfort lies in discomfort
When to be real, I need to hide
When safety is but an illusion

My refuge looms upon a despondent cliff
Pale white with dark soulless windows
The raging sea below-
mirrors the turbulent clouds above
An atmosphere hued in gray despair

For when thunder shakes
And the lightning-flash unmasks
Anywhere will do!

Within those ghostly insipid walls lies my only hope
A secret refuge from a glaring world
A chance to explore promiscuous dreams
Away from the threatening storm of prejudice

And despite the wailing moan of wind
searching through the corridors
Or the ominous shudder of windows
as the sea hammers the foundations below
Despite an eerie loneliness
sipping from beneath the aged upholstery
Or the dark shades
that lend evil to the portraits on the walls
Despite all this
I find my freedom here
Away from the morals of an immoral world

Oh to be a wild and free spirit
In a world of endless rules
Will you ever find home