Hesitant to love you #poetry #writephoto

I’m nervous for this week and I can’t understand why.
I feel something impending and I just can’t shake that feeling.

But for now I’ll keep writing each night, and try to alleviate this trepidation.

Does your sixth sense go haywire too?

Anyway, the ponderous thought from this week’s Saturday Symphony inspired me to write this,

Hesitant to love you

The love withheld
Is the one we want the most

Desire leaks from your supple lips

As they moisten my cheek with a kiss veiled in innocence

Your fingers graze my arm as you turn to leave
Your need raking lust through my nerves
You know I want you
But you want me to love you

Alas, I do not remember how
My broken heart carries only a phantom love
A shade of the dreams you see in me
My mind is willing
But my soul beseeches reprieve
Yearns for a haven clouded from love’s scorching rays

You have fallen for a silhouette in the dark
You do not know what dawn will reveal
You have clasped onto the ecstasy of saving a damaged soul
Got lost in the euphoria of blind love
Potential, your drive
But also your doom

You cannot understand
Why I withhold this love of mine
You cannot know
How my spirit desires and despises this feeling
Wounded, fading in and out of love
A lost firefly in the dark
Seeking rest and respite

You cannot tell
that I am not good for you

That it’s because I love you
that I spare you from this mutilated love

Dandelion dreams
Float away on ailing winds
Love lost forever


Six word story

Finding inner peace makes love bloom.

Β©judeitakali


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P.S.
Don’t forget to check out this week’s Saturday Symphony for some reading bliss.

Stay safe, and stay loving.

58 Comments Add yours

  1. Reena Saxena says:

    Well, this is deep exploration of the psyche. Thanks for joining in!

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    1. judeitakali says:

      My pleasure Reena, yeah I was thinking a bit deep

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  2. Reena Saxena says:

    Reblogged this on Reena Saxena and commented:
    Hesitant to love you ….. by Jude

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  3. Sue Vincent says:

    A poignant conclusion, Jude.

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you Sue

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  4. This is very deep, Jude. I hope your week turns out well and your trepidation is unfounded.

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you Roberta. I’ll be cautious just in case

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  5. justcalmwildness says:

    This is beautiful as always🧑🧑. I hope you get better.

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you Jackie ❀️ I’ll keep my fingers crossed that it’s nothing.🌷🌼

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      1. justcalmwildness says:

        🌸🌸

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you kindly πŸ’›

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  6. HappySoul says:

    Deep, beautiful, loved the last lines!

    Like

    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you so much. I’m glad you loved them

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  7. mariamichaela says:

    So beautiful. Love this line “You have fallen for a silhouette in the dark”. But also, those last four lines triggered a memory I have of long ago. I didn’t know I needed this. Awesome work, Jude!

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you Michaela. I’m so glad you could relate. Many of us don’t understand when love is withheld.

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  8. Elizabeth says:

    Beautiful poems as usual! Hope everything is ok for you this week!

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you Elizabeth. I’ll definitely tread carefully and pray.

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  9. Deep feelings emanate from your words Jude. Well done!!

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you Radhika, it is a deep emotion to withhold love 🌼

      Like

  10. Dora says:

    So evocative, Jude β€” the imagery is brilliant. πŸŒΉπŸ’š

    Hope you shake off the anxiety and have a good week πŸ™‚

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you Dora. I’ll try and draw from the wells of positivity all around.
      πŸ€—πŸ’›πŸ™πŸΎ

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  11. I have moments like those too. A very heartbreaking piece of poetry, Jude. I hope you feel better in the coming days.

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you Shweta. I’m glad you can relate. Maybe the ponderous thought can tempt you 😁
      I’ll try and draw from around me to feel better.

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  12. Roshni says:

    How beautifully you’ve written.I hope your week goes well.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you so much Roshni. I’m keeping my fingers crossed.

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  13. Bulbul says:

    So there with you on that feeling, sometimes nerves are too bound to relax.
    Beautiful words, very deep and thoughtful ❀️❀️, I love the haiku a little too much.

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Haha, I’m so glad you like it. Thank you so much Bubble.
      Love all the wayπŸ˜ƒπŸŒΌ

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      1. Bulbul says:

        Always a pleasure, Jude. πŸ˜πŸ€—πŸ–€πŸŒž

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  14. Deep and aching verse, Jude! Take care. ❀️

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you Punam. I will. πŸ’›πŸ§‘πŸ’š

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      1. You are welcome. πŸ’™

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  15. memadtwo says:

    I get free floating anxiety too. But it comes and goes.
    You have woven another intense emotional story in your poem. I like that you ended with dandelion dreams. (K)

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you so much K. It was supposed to be a nice love poem but this anxiety sipped in and I just wrote from the heart

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  16. This is deep knowledge Jude
    Loved it and heartfelt

    Like

    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you so much. I had to rescue this from the spam but you’re now approved. πŸ’›πŸŒΈ

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  17. Take things easy and get some rest. I have feelings of impending doom when I am tired and stressed. Get better!

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you Kim. The night is fine, I exercise and write and eat and sleep tired. It’s the day while working and moving around that feels so ominous.

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  18. Jules says:

    …Speaking of fireflies… there are actually several species. One in particular just mimics others to steel their mates!

    Anyway… sometimes those that are broken resist healing… love will come hopefully before the gifter decides to walk away.

    Blooming love does need two to tango πŸ˜‰

    Hope you do have a good week. Sometimes it is just the weather that makes us feel altered in some way. Keep cool and carry on!

    (I thought this was for something different but then I read it was for the current WritePhoto πŸ™‚ )

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Yeah, it went a bit deep and also other prompts fit in it. I’m feeling more positive now. That’s interesting about the fireflies. Thank you so much Jules for the care. It’s really heartwarming πŸ€—

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  19. PoojaG says:

    This was really emotional! Hope your week picks up and you feel better soon!

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you Pooja. It has picked up. I hope you’re okay as well Mon Ami 🌼

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      1. PoojaG says:

        Glad to hear that and yes I am!

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      2. judeitakali says:

        πŸ§‘πŸ’š

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