I’m nervous for this week and I can’t understand why.
I feel something impending and I just can’t shake that feeling.
But for now I’ll keep writing each night, and try to alleviate this trepidation.
Does your sixth sense go haywire too?
Anyway, the ponderous thought from this week’s Saturday Symphony inspired me to write this,
Hesitant to love you
The love withheld
Is the one we want the most
Desire leaks from your supple lips
As they moisten my cheek with a kiss veiled in innocence
Your fingers graze my arm as you turn to leave
Your need raking lust through my nerves
You know I want you
But you want me to love you
Alas, I do not remember how
My broken heart carries only a phantom love
A shade of the dreams you see in me
My mind is willing
But my soul beseeches reprieve
Yearns for a haven clouded from love’s scorching rays
You have fallen for a silhouette in the dark
You do not know what dawn will reveal
You have clasped onto the ecstasy of saving a damaged soul
Got lost in the euphoria of blind love
Potential, your drive
But also your doom
You cannot understand
Why I withhold this love of mine
You cannot know
How my spirit desires and despises this feeling
Wounded, fading in and out of love
A lost firefly in the dark
Seeking rest and respite
You cannot tell
that I am not good for you
That it’s because I love you
that I spare you from this mutilated love
Dandelion dreams
Float away on ailing winds
Love lost forever
Six word story
Finding inner peace makes love bloom.
Also for;
- Sue’s writephoto prompt – clouded
- Shweta’s six word story prompt – peace
- Reena’s exploration challenge – phantom, silhouette, spirit, shade.
P.S.
Don’t forget to check out this week’s Saturday Symphony for some reading bliss.
Stay safe, and stay loving.
Well, this is deep exploration of the psyche. Thanks for joining in!
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My pleasure Reena, yeah I was thinking a bit deep
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Hesitant to love you ….. by Jude
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A poignant conclusion, Jude.
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Thank you Sue
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This is very deep, Jude. I hope your week turns out well and your trepidation is unfounded.
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Thank you Roberta. I’ll be cautious just in case
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This is beautiful as always🧡🧡. I hope you get better.
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Thank you Jackie ❤️ I’ll keep my fingers crossed that it’s nothing.🌷🌼
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🌸🌸
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Beautiful!
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Thank you kindly 💛
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Deep, beautiful, loved the last lines!
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Thank you so much. I’m glad you loved them
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So beautiful. Love this line “You have fallen for a silhouette in the dark”. But also, those last four lines triggered a memory I have of long ago. I didn’t know I needed this. Awesome work, Jude!
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Thank you Michaela. I’m so glad you could relate. Many of us don’t understand when love is withheld.
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Beautiful poems as usual! Hope everything is ok for you this week!
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Thank you Elizabeth. I’ll definitely tread carefully and pray.
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Deep feelings emanate from your words Jude. Well done!!
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Thank you Radhika, it is a deep emotion to withhold love 🌼
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So evocative, Jude — the imagery is brilliant. 🌹💚
Hope you shake off the anxiety and have a good week 🙂
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Thank you Dora. I’ll try and draw from the wells of positivity all around.
🤗💛🙏🏾
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I have moments like those too. A very heartbreaking piece of poetry, Jude. I hope you feel better in the coming days.
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Thank you Shweta. I’m glad you can relate. Maybe the ponderous thought can tempt you 😁
I’ll try and draw from around me to feel better.
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How beautifully you’ve written.I hope your week goes well.
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Thank you so much Roshni. I’m keeping my fingers crossed.
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So there with you on that feeling, sometimes nerves are too bound to relax.
Beautiful words, very deep and thoughtful ❤️❤️, I love the haiku a little too much.
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Haha, I’m so glad you like it. Thank you so much Bubble.
Love all the way😃🌼
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Always a pleasure, Jude. 😁🤗🖤🌞
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Deep and aching verse, Jude! Take care. ❤️
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Thank you Punam. I will. 💛🧡💚
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You are welcome. 💙
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I get free floating anxiety too. But it comes and goes.
You have woven another intense emotional story in your poem. I like that you ended with dandelion dreams. (K)
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Thank you so much K. It was supposed to be a nice love poem but this anxiety sipped in and I just wrote from the heart
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This is deep knowledge Jude
Loved it and heartfelt
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Thank you so much. I had to rescue this from the spam but you’re now approved. 💛🌸
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Take things easy and get some rest. I have feelings of impending doom when I am tired and stressed. Get better!
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Thank you Kim. The night is fine, I exercise and write and eat and sleep tired. It’s the day while working and moving around that feels so ominous.
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…Speaking of fireflies… there are actually several species. One in particular just mimics others to steel their mates!
Anyway… sometimes those that are broken resist healing… love will come hopefully before the gifter decides to walk away.
Blooming love does need two to tango 😉
Hope you do have a good week. Sometimes it is just the weather that makes us feel altered in some way. Keep cool and carry on!
(I thought this was for something different but then I read it was for the current WritePhoto 🙂 )
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Yeah, it went a bit deep and also other prompts fit in it. I’m feeling more positive now. That’s interesting about the fireflies. Thank you so much Jules for the care. It’s really heartwarming 🤗
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This was really emotional! Hope your week picks up and you feel better soon!
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Thank you Pooja. It has picked up. I hope you’re okay as well Mon Ami 🌼
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Glad to hear that and yes I am!
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