Eye of depression #MentalAwareness

This post might be a little raw for some but I hope it is illuminating to many.

Reena’s exploration challenge

Look at me!
Don’t stare but look!
You cannot see it, can you?
Of course you can’t!
For you see only what you want to see!
But if you linger for a moment, you may catch a glimpse
Of the sullen crease on the edge of each beaming smile
Of the flamboyance in faked happiness
The exaggeration in sincerity
And the anger that swiftly follows joy

Look! Because my eyes cannot deceive
All wonder diminishes in their reflection
The light that once sparkled is all but gone
And pain is now my deepest secret
I defend it deligently with walls of sarcasm
And retreat to seclusion, as contingency

Yet each night the walls crumble and despair trickles in;
Taking a sliver of hope
Dousing an ember of love
And tainting a recluse of gratitude!
But still each morning I build those walls up again, reinforce them with pretence
And if you look–if you truly look, you’ll see a smile turn to grimace
A gaze to a glare
And hope into tears

Beyond our own preoccupation, a deeper sight dwells-
To see that reality, is not all that it may seem.

Β© judeitakali


Reena gave us the image-prompt tagged above, and asked us to list three words that came to mind, before composing a post. My three words were eye, secrets, reflection.

Feel free to share any and all thoughts about this.

Stay safe everyone, stay loving.

59 Comments Add yours

  1. mariamichaela says:

    You described it very well, Jude. It is important we look closely and be more aware. It’s always good to check in on people and even check ourselves. Well written my friend.

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thanks Michaela. I agree that we always have to check ourselves as well. πŸ’œ

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  2. Sadje says:

    The last lines are so poignant Jude.

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thanks Sadje. I’m glad they say something to you. πŸ™πŸΎπŸ’œ

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      1. Sadje says:

        You’re welcome my friend

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  3. Daphny Aqua says:

    Loved it. It describes so well of a person who looks strong but is mentally drained yet still smiles like nothings wrong in their life, like you say the one’s who can look through their eyes are the only one who can truly know how they feel.

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you Daphny. I believe in “it’s our world” not “it’s my world” because even when secluded from people, we have to coexist with nature.
      I think when we realise that then we can truly look at other people and pick up on the signs.

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      1. Daphny Aqua says:

        Thats true, hopefully we can learn that as well ❣

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  4. Lesley says:

    It’s true, no matter how we try to hide our depression a false smile never reaches the eyes. You used the picture and the words it brought to mind to write a truthful account of this horrible condition. The last two lines urges us to look beyond ourselves and take notice of the suffering of others.

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you Lesley. There are always signs. I’m not sure about what we can do when we see them, but I know that just being there and caring goes a long long way.

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      1. Lesley says:

        I agree, Jude.

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  5. Reena Saxena says:

    i tear apart masks to see some more
    then find a mirror that reflects my core

    You may not want to hide when you know
    It hurts all, the nerve endings are all raw

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Very evocative and deep Reena. I like this alot. πŸ’œ

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      1. Reena Saxena says:

        Thanks 😊

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  6. Reena Saxena says:

    Reblogged this on Reena Saxena and commented:
    Eye of depression – Mental Awareness by Jude Itakali

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  7. A brilliant and insightful write! I although feel that beyond the awareness to mental health there is also some serious social criticism in your lines; feeling low is not necessarily pathological, maybe what is though is the dictatorship of fake and hollow positivity that we are all supposed to exude with!πŸ˜“
    I relate well on that level, with sarcastic people; (as you mention😜) often a little connivence smirk 😏 breaks us from the very lonely crowd…πŸ˜₯
    Thank you for that brilliant write!πŸ™

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you Didier. You caught meπŸ™ŒπŸΎ
      I did put in a critical sting so that there is a little guilt and reminder to us all.

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  8. earthskyair says:

    You have captured this – much more common than we like to think – so well. 🌷

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you. I’m glad you approve. πŸ’œπŸ™πŸΎ

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  9. eunice says:

    Great piece πŸ‘Œ

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you Eunice. πŸ™πŸΎπŸ’œ

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  10. This is a very interesting poem, Jude. People often do have a darker side.

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Very much so Robbie. Thank you πŸ™πŸΎπŸ’œ

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  11. Roshni says:

    A brilliant poem, JudeπŸ‘

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thanks alot Roshni. πŸ’œ

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  12. balroop2013 says:

    Outstanding! You seem to know those walls too well!

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you Roop. More of understand them than know. πŸ™πŸΎπŸ’œ

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  13. Beautiful, insightful write, Jude! Who has the time to look at others.

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Very right, and yet we do not exist aloneπŸ™πŸΎπŸ’œ

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  14. I understand and relate to so much of this–well written

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you so much for appreciating. πŸ™πŸΎ

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  15. Wooaahh! I’m just stunned.
    Depression is terrible, it is not something to be romanticized.
    I’m so glad that you focused on the real pain, the worser sides and the reality of depression. It fits the picture very aptly. Love your unique perspectives ❀️

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you Hema. It is a very sensitive topic and I knew I had to give more of the view from the other side.

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  16. You describe this existence so well, I can only imagine you are personally acquainted with it in some way, Jude … It rang so many bells with me too…

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you so much Jaye. I am aquatinted with a few who face it and I do have a gift or curse for empathy πŸ˜“πŸ™πŸΎπŸ’œ

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      1. πŸ™πŸ»πŸ™πŸ»

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  17. Stunning write, Jude! Many see only what they want to see! Yes, this is raw but true and very relatable.

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you so much Eugi. I’m glad you appreciate and acknowledge this. πŸ™πŸΎπŸ’œ

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      1. My pleasure, Jude.

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  18. Diana says:

    Lovely, dear Jude! Stay blessed πŸ˜πŸ€—β€οΈ

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you Diana. I’m always happy to know what you think.

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  19. sammicakes says:

    Amazing job, this perfectly ties into something I have been working on. Love it ❀

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you so much. Please drop a link here to find it when you are finished. πŸ™πŸΎπŸ’œ

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  20. Beautiful, Jude, and so heartbreaking. The pain isn’t hard to see if our hearts are open and we’re paying attention. ❀

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you so much Diana. I agree entirely πŸ’œ

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  21. Pratik says:

    Nice post

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you πŸ™πŸΎ

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  22. lost says:

    Beautiful.. thank you.

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thanks for the appreciation as well. πŸ™πŸΎ

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  24. Sara says:

    Incredibly evocative! Thank you for sharing.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you Sara. I’m glad you like it.

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  25. Americaoncoffee says:

    Lots of feelings! ❀️

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    1. judeitakali says:

      Thank you so much.

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      1. Americaoncoffee says:

        My pleasure.β™₯️

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