Toxic collaboration. #poeticprose

By Pooja(Italics) and Jude(bold italics)

You came into my life like a snow storm in the middle of May,
And just like that you changed my life forever,
With you I learnt to expect the unexpected,
You were the only one that saw the real me,
And you were the one that shattered me beyond recognition,
You broke me every single day and yet you always put me back together,
Your diamonds turned into rhinestones,
Your red roses turned black,
And yet I know that you will always be the only one for me

When I cared you ignored. When I was mean, you clang on. What then should I have done, when all I wanted, was all of you.

I tried to hold on even when you pushed me away. I kept waiting for you to try. Even just a little.

It was easy to hurt you, but hard to see you cry. I told myself I’d try, but in the end I always knew you’d leave me.

A small part of me died every time you made me cry, until I no longer recognized the person in the mirror. I told myself I’d stay forever, but in the end I always knew I’d leave you.

Good riddance! I say each day. I’m sorry! I mourn each night. Cradling a glass of bitter whisky, for each dark lonely hour without you.

If leaving was for the best why do I cry myself to sleep every night? Why does your face haunt me in my dreams? Do you even care that I’m gone? Every night I fall apart wishing I was falling apart in your arms. You torture my very soul without even trying.

Alas you left me, smote like ash in the embers of our love
And just like that, you changed my life forever
I heard you’re happy now; with a new beau to boot.
I wonder, if like me you remember-
Each kiss, each tear, each bliss!
All the deepest darkest secrets we shared
But I know you regret nothing
Why would you–that burden is mine to carry
I will always be ash, swept away in the memories of our lost love
And I pray to never love again
For the love I bear, is a rotten love!

©Lifesfinewhine © judeitakali


Toxic love is quite the enigma. It’s been ages since my last collaborative post. I hope you enjoy this one. Eager to hear your thoughts in the comments (I think Pooja will pass by too).

I always enjoy working with Pooja(she’s cool peeps) Check out her wonderfully diverse and in my opinion model site here; Lifesfinewhine.

Stay safe everyone. Stay loving.

60 responses to “Toxic collaboration. #poeticprose”

  1. How well you both have collaborated to explore the toxic love-hate relationship.

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    1. Thank you Sadje. Glad you think so💜

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      1. You’re welcome my friend

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  2. Wonderful collaboration. Powerful piece. Truly enjoyed.💕❤️💕

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    1. Thanks alot. Glad you like it Grace💜.

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  3. This is so interesting: the subject is a minefield, but the two of you examine all of the angles so well!

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    1. Yeah it’s very tricky. We sort of skimmed it a bit.

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      1. I think you went into it quite deeply!

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        1. Oh, yeah. Maybe it’s more like dressing the ugliness a bit.

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  4. I’m speechless, beautiful collaboration. Your dialogue look like real, so powerful

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    1. Thank you so much Jane.

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      1. You are always welcome,Jude!

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  5. Your collaboration was nicely done. Toxic relationships truly pull us in many directions.

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    1. Thanks LaDonna.💜

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  6. Beautiful, sad but at the same time, glad that person got away from it. Healing will take a while, but better off.

    Amazing work from you two. Well done! 🌷

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    1. Thanks alot Michaela. Yeah it does take time.

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      1. You’re welcome, Jude 🙂

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  7. A brilliant collaboration! The lines blend so well the story come alive as one! Nice work Jude and Pooja.

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    1. Thank you Suzette. 😃🙏🏾

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  8. I really like the back and forth here. How our regrets can torture us! (K)

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    1. Yeah. Toxic love is a lot of taking, and barely any giving.

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  9. Love can be toxic, I relate to some points raised by speakers in your poem. Yours is a brilliant collaboration. Skillfully written.

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    1. Thank you very much Khaya. I’m glad you appreciate it. A deeper question is; if it’s toxic, is it still not love?

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  10. Such a wonderful collaboration, simply loving your takes on toxic love.

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    1. Hey Daphny. I’m glad you appreciated this one. 🙏🏾🌼

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      1. Its been a pleasure 🤗🌸

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  11. I find your collaboration amazing! Such a skillful blending of words about toxic love. Bittersweet!

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    1. Thank you Eugi. Toxic love is indeed a very bittersweet kind of love. 💜🌼

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      1. Most welcome, Jude!

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  12. Collaborations are an amazing way to challenge each other in the writing of a poem and take a story in unexpected and sharp directions! Love the imagery and poignant writing here.

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    1. Thank you so much Jaya. You’ve summed it up so well. They do go in fun unexpected directions. 🙏🏾💜

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    1. Thank you Elizabeth.

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  13. Two good heads are indeed better than one …

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    1. Much appreciated Eunice.

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  14. Always a pleasure collaborating with you 😊

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    1. More than. 💜🤗

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  15. Nicely done! Not my favorite topic to think about. Hahaha. How often did I stay with Mr. Wrong, when I could have been free to find Mr Right?

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    1. To love is to live. So don’t regret it too much.

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  16. Beautiful collab. Nice one guys!

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  17. This was a good collaboration 😁

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  18. This is beautiful. Two distinct sides – how one person can be both parts of a toxic relationship and see the other as both the toxic one and the savior. Very immaculately composed.

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    1. It was very nice to balance out with the female point of view 🙏🏾

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      1. From my perspective, as a female, I saw the whole thing from the female perpective, and it was perfect. On second read, I put myself in the man’s shoes and it was perfect.
        On third read, I tried to hear the two distinct voices, which I could, but to me it still feels like one voice with both sides.

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        1. Too much synchronisation perhaps.

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          1. No. It’s perfect. I see what you were doing, and you did it. But for me, I have been on both sides of toxic relationships before, and it feels like one person because it does shift back and forth.

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            1. I have been close to ‘toxic’ in both friends and paramours, but i came to discover that there’s usually some other issue going on in people’s lives and so I usually didn’t think of them as toxic, coz I’ve never really caved to peer pressure so wasn’t at risk of picking up habits. I just knew that as a friend, I could advise but mostly just stay around and show rather than tell. I know what toxic is considered but I heavily empathize or sympathize with the said ‘toxic’

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              1. Sometimes, neither person is individually toxic, it’s just combustible when they’re together. I have sympathized with those toxic people as well, and I was good at not getting sucked into it. Then I did. It was one relationship that lasted a grand total of about 3 months before I realized I hated every single thing that person brought out in me and I got away from it. It hasn’t been like that again for me. I don’t know how it’s been for them, it was 23 years ago or so now. But when you’re in one of those relationships, it’s very rarely a one-sided toxicity. One person can’t be toxic for both – takes two to tango. So that’s how I read it – the fact that when in a toxic relationship, the person can be simultaneously the aggressively toxic one and the victim.

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                1. Very true 🙏🏾

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                  1. It is a powerful piece. When the message can be reinterpreted enough to fit the readers mind without being completely wrong, it spoke to them and they were engrossed. Sometimes we aim for complete clarity in such writing, sometimes, just the right amount of vagueness (usually completely unintentional) allows readers to connect more with the message then they otherwise would. I connected quote strongly to it based on a situation that is long past and had even been forgotten. It was extremely powerful and moving. And it made me extremely grateful that I had enough awareness to run. And you reminded me of that awareness and strength. Thank you.

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                    1. Thank you so much. I do intend to leave interpretation ‘wiggle room’ in everything I write, even when I have a particular message I’m pushing through. It’s wonderful to hear this assessment from you.

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  19. is toxic love really love?

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    1. Love is not always pure, and yet it is love. I think Life moulds the way each person loves, and so no one really has a right to define it.

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